Sunday, May 11, 2008

Trying On Optimism

I'm painfully aware that the blog I started to be mostly business, crafting, art and etsy with a smidge of personal life is now majority personal with a smidge of the aforementioned. I've maintained a bit of etsy, since I'm still lurking there, but crafting and business have fallen by the wayside. Creating anything has become a casualty of my current temporarily single, stay at home mom in flux situation. It's a little disappointing. I started out gungho, working hard, creating every moment I had, learning about business and had some pretty good sales happening for being a beginner. That was before we learned, only a few short months after I opened shop, we'd be relocating. Now my momentum has been halted and I'm a little concerned I won't be able to get the fire back even when we are moved and settled. Having a dedicated studio/office will probably be a pretty good kick start though!

And about the house, I'm warming up to it and even getting to appreciate it a bit. It's not so bad, pretty cute actually and not so much horribly outdated as it is a clean slate for me to have fun with. We're still waiting to see how it'll all pan out. Financing is tight but I'm fighting my nature and going optimist. I'm slowly beginning to pack, dust, sort and realizing how much there is in our house that I have overlooked on a daily basis but is so blaringly junky, dusty, dirty now that I'm digging in. Whatever happens it'll work the way it's meant to and hopefully I can just take it all as it comes, I'm warming up my zen attitude.


Shelley said...

Gol Durn! I had this whole comment and hit the wrong button.

To sum, I am a slob but didn't realize how much so until I started sorting/packing/etc. Holy squalor, Batman!

Also, you go with your bad optimistic self. I'm with ya.

SpinachNPeace said...

I love this line: "It's not so bad, pretty cute actually and not so much horribly outdated as it is a clean slate for me to have fun with."

That is exactly how I think of my apartment.

My goal this week is to be more optimistic:)

UberArt and Emerson Bindery said...

I've found my creativity waxes and wanes according to events in my life also. Just when I think I've completely lost it, a big wave of creativity surges over me and I explode with new ideas. Just give it time, and don't beat yourself up when you're not into it! It'll come!

Diana said...

The optimism and zen attitude suit you very well, my friend. I'm so glad to know that you're trying this on. Anxiety and brooding only serve to be restrictive, in creativity, in productivity, and in life enjoyment.

And I see all of the above on the horizon for you!

One has only so much energy. And because your family comes first, as it should, this is where you're directing your energy. But your art, though dormant, is waiting for you when you are ready. I think you'll find that it will have only multiplied, and you'll be on to bigger and better plateaus, especially with an integrated family and a wonderful new home surrounding you.

Here's to all manner of great thing coming your way!

Grandma said...

Hang in there, you are doing fine. This too shall pass and the best is yet to come!